I got Avril's new cd today.  I like it.  I had my second day of my nine to five job.  I actually can say I enjoyed it.  The fact that I am teaching people older than me how to be a lifeguard makes me feel very smart and mature. 

 I am finally realizing that I won't be around home that much this summer.  I really am glad though.  There has been aboslutely nothing going on lately.  Well, if there is then no one has bothered to call me.  It wouldn't suprise me if that was the case.  The people I used to party with just haven't figured out that its not cool to get totally sloshed and then drive home.  Life to them is just a huge party with no consequences.  Well to everyone who thinks that all I have to tell you is that no party is worth screwing up your life.  People can die, and even worse then dying is killing someone else because you thought it would be fine to drive the country roads home drunk off your ass.  If you are luckey and a cop stops you instead of a tree or a ditch or another car head on, then you will at least get a second chance to live, that is after you take diversion or accept a DWI on your record.  So when your completeing your thirty hours of community cervice just remember, you were the luckiest teenager in the wrold to be givin a chance to pay for your mistakes and still be able to  hug your mom and say sorry.  I am also sorry to tell everyone, wether you are a partier or not, statistics show that someone you know will die this summer.  Think about it, who knows if next week you'll be able to argue with your friend, or call your sister, or ever say that you were sorry for not being there.  All I know is that I'm not going to take any chances this summer.

Ya know the saying, "keep you friends close, but your enemies closer?  Well, the more i think about it the more i realize that  may be my problem.  I have a really really close friend who at times i absolutely dispise.  Every time i hear her talk i cringe.  Some times i want to kick her in the head.  It's really bad and i feel like an awful person.  I can't help it though.  She can just be so immature and ungrateful.  Are we friends or foes?

Today I learned a great lesson...  Nothing is ever free.  See, I was bored one day and I went to this website that had all of this "Free" stuff.  I was like how awesome.  So of course i filled out as many servays as i could.  Along with a ton of free make up samples, i came across free cds. The add asked me which free cd i would like to have, so i picked one.  Well, it came in the mail today with a bill attached. I totally freaked.  I'm not a millioare yet so what the hell will i use to pay for this so called free cd?  I was so freaked out that my dad would be mad at me for being so stupid.  My dad came home and i sat down next to him.  I said to him " Dad, remember that music club you were in a long time ago?" "Yea", he said.  "Was it a good deal?" I asked.  "Yea they had great deals. I just ran out of cds i wanted."  "Well, ya see, i a kinda joined it on accident, and they a sent me a free cd, but i have to send them shipping and handleing."  I cringed, waiting for his response.  "Well, i'll  go ahead and pay them and you can pay me back.  Just pay attention so they don't screw you over." he added.  I was so relieved, and now i get seven cds for the price of one. So all in all, a wierd situation turned out good for once.

Mander